People seeing me 'smile and laugh' as if I have nothing to worry and concern about but nobody knows what the inside is...Only me do. It's not easy to cope with my situation.. I asked a few thoughts from my friends but not many of them can give me the best solution..Its easy to give advice more difficult when you're having to do it. I think, mine is complex and unusual difficult.. ...In a way, I feel completely stuck - My friend has once said to me 'Maybe I'm 'stuck' waiting for my luck to change? Maybe I have to try and make my own luck?'' Yes, maybe I replied..... Maybe I should try and do instead of waiting? Yes, it's all maybe...
I've been thinking a lot recently trying to find a solution...I keep and keep searching but still I have not found yet. The more I think the less I have. My head was aching I felt lost and confused.. Sometimes the pressure was so unbearable - I had this opportunity that some people search and struggling to get..I had been all through that but I have not complete the 'task'...yet. It's gone through the half way and I was stuck in a middle...Why this is happening to me? Is it because of me? or is it the situation made me? I don't want to lost this one chance....and I don't know if I can keep continuing what I am now, but if I did - Will it change the situation? Shall I just move on? The difficulties and obstacles made me so upset and frustrated. Life isn't easy.. I still remembered before I came to the UK - Kevin told me that 'roads in the UK are not paved with gold and not always a bed of flowers'. He's absolutely right!!
This afternoon, I called my mum and sister Lenny, I haven't talked to them since last year - It was good to hear their voiced again. I missed them so much...!! I am glad that they were all fine. That's the most important.... As in things back home and stuff...some of them I was not very happy with... It's not easy to dealt two things when you're far apart.. I just hope things are getting better soon.
My headache really 'discomfort' and annoying me -- I think, I better take some rest and hope tomorrow be better than today. xxx
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Thursday, January 3, 2008
New Year Journey in London..
''We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.'' ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce~
New Year's eve is like every other night --- Last year '2006' I celebrated it at home in Walton -- Just chilled out and watched the festive on telly. I thought, it was rather bored - At that moment, I wished I can see the spectacular and multi-coloured fireworks in flesh!....It look really cool, fun and breathtaking!!...
Another fresh new year is here, another year to live -- So, this year '2007' I've planned to go to London to experience it myself!! -- After I finished work at 16.00 then we getting ready to go to London, we planned to meet Max and his friend for a dinner before the fireworks display started .....I'm not sure what to expect but what I know is, it's gonna be so, so crowded as there are more than 350, 000 people are expected to gather in central London to celebrate New Year's Eve...
We're off to the station at 19.13 hoped to catch a train from W-O-Thames at 19.17 but we missed it! D***! As we waited for the next train to arrive at 19.41, I saw a note stick on the counter ''Transport for London services (London Underground, London buses, Docklands Light Railway, and Tramlink) will be running all night on New Year's Eve and will be free between 23:45 and 04:30. Trains from Waterloo Station to W-O-Thames are available at 00.12, 1.12 and 2.12'' - Cool... So, we have to get a train by or at least at 1am - as soon as we got in the train I received a text from Max saying 'His friend not coming with us. What to do now?'' - Then I suggested him to join us for dinner instead...
We arrived at London Waterloo station at 20.03 as we went off the station to Hungerford Bridge heading to Leicester Square... I noticed a temporary metal gate beneath the bridge suddenly clanged shut, there are a lot of police, security guard around..I asked one of them how can I get to the other side of the river...and she said 'You have to go to Blackfriars Bridge as both Hungerford and Waterloo Bridges are closed.'' What!!...I still think some of them not sure where to direct or to point to...may be due to overcrowding problems they've shut the bridges -- Instead of 00.25 minutes walked to Leicester Square it took me almost an hour to get there as there is no re-direction signs, no public announcements even some of the stewards do not give a correct direction!! Oh well, I should have read the newspapers or watch telly for information or at least access the net before I went but I didn't uh!
As we headed to Blackfriars Bridge I got another texts from Max saying 'He can't join us for dinner as he's going with his other friend for a party but will probably see us 'later'' , Well never mind..we will see 'later' if we can get together -- We decided to have an Italian food that night - Honestly, I don't really bother whatever food we gonna have.. I'm just so starving as I didn't have a lunch at work not even a proper breakfast.....and walked for about 3 miles to Leicester Sq isn't helped at all. We found one next to Wagamama by the time we got there I just couldn't believe what I saw...every restaurants were in a queued!! We waited about half an hour not till 21.40 then we had our dinner. Please note during New Year's Eve some restaurants may increased their 'service charge' to 25%..!! So be prepared!! Next time I rather eat at home!! But thanks to Neil for the lovely dinner...and for spent New Year with me.. otherwise I might have spend it myself as all of my friends are 'busy' or disappeared somewhere....hahaha....
Twenty five minutes to New Year, got a called from Max to arranged for a meeting...so we set 'at Charing Cross Station at half past 11pm' -- As we leave the restaurant we can see all the people heading to one direction 'Trafalgar Square' --- I thought there are some events there so we remain inactive and waited but none...nada..nothing!! just a big giant screen showing some singers singing 'unknown' etc..It was drizzling and wet as we waited the countdown to come....two minutes to go!!! We were thinking to go to London Eye to see the fireworks... or at least to see it from a distance...but we were 'stuck' in the crowded of thousands of people, pushing and screaming....!! 
We were still trying...to see more of it, so we walked to Charing Cross as the fireworks still display, I ran quick to the platform to catch the 'last' exploded but didn't managed to see. Uh..! How sad!! All the hassle to get here, all the long walked, all the long queue, all that standing around etc... very disappointed!! After waiting about ten minutes in a station we still haven't heard or a text from Max, not knowing where's he..So, we decided to head back to Waterloo Station as we don't know 'How long' to get there with all the creeping slowly along packed streets, barely moved at all..it might take us hours..
Eventually we got there..It took me almost two hours to get into Waterloo Station....phew..!!..I looked at the 'time'??? 02.14am! Looked up the departure screen.....Oh shot!! we just missed the last train!! Bummer!! This gonna be a disaster, a miserable night...Last option; Get a train to Kingston which is at 02.27am then....either walk or take a taxi to W-O-Thames? --- When we got at Kingston...there's a long, long queue for a taxi...I didn't bother to do all those queuing ''again''..So we decided to walk instead '5miles'....Yes '5 miles..!! You could called it..'a nightmare journey home after NY' -- But well, I did enjoyed a bit of it seriously..not the long walked though..but...the chilly weather that night was so refreshing, it didn't fuss me at all - I took some pictures along way home without a 'word of moaning' hehehe... Something that I would never ever forget!!
I saw this small creature on the way home..I never saw it before, it's tempted to touch but my nerve didn't let me -- Neil said it was a Hedgehog - It looks very furry but I think it's rather a small spiny, with a small black eyes a bit like a mouse I would say... It has black, brown and white spots quite 'cute' - They say it has very excellent smell..so cool eh?- when I took the pictures, he didn't move at all...How strange.... do you think Hedgehogs are blind??
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